When Your Inner Energies Meet By: Osho

... It is the state of ‘ardhanarishwar’, says OSHO

 You carry a woman within. Whenever any woman fits with that inner woman, suddenly you are in love. That love is not manipulated by you, it is not your mind that is falling in love, it is something very unconscious. In this woman, you have a glimpse, suddenly you feel that this is the right person.

 

Falling In Love

 

What makes this woman the right person? Because for others, she is not the right person: there are people who will hate her, some others will never take a second look at her. In fact, some will laugh at you: “You must be mad to fall in love with this woman,” they’ll tell you. But this woman somehow fits with the inner. That’s why love is an irrational thing: whenever it happens, it happens — you cannot do anything about it; if it doesn’t happen, you cannot do anything about it.

 

When you make love to a woman, the inner energy comes to a crescendo. At that point, don’t go on looking outside, otherwise you will miss something beautiful that is happening inside: you are becoming a circle. Your two, male and female, are meeting, you are becoming ardhanarishwar. In this moment, your whole body will vibrate with life from the toes to the head, because this circle spreads all over the body. It is not sexual, it is more than sex. Watch it! Watch the reaching of the peak, the meeting of the inner energies. Then watch when the tide has gone and the abyss starts. Watch, by and by, the separation of the energies again.

 

For a single moment, the one happens in you. That’s why so much pleasure is derived out of orgasm — because for a single moment, you become one, the two disappears. And in the moment of orgasm, there is no mind.

 

Observe Yourself

 

So close your eyes and watch what is happening inside. Don’t try to make anything happen, just watch whatsoever is happening. By and by, it happens, just like when you come inside a room after walking outside in the sun. You come inside the room and everything is dark, you cannot see anything because your eyes are still not accustomed to this dark room. Wait! Sit down and go on silently looking. By and by, the darkness will disappear and you will become aware of things now that your eyes are accustomed to it.

 

Coming from the outer to the inner is a great problem only because your eyes are accustomed to the outside. The inside looks dark and by the time you are ready, the moment has gone. So meditate more and more with closed eyes, and look inside, so you can become attuned to the inner darkness. It is not dark; it just appears dark to you because you are accustomed to the outside light. By and by a diffused light comes, things become clear; a moment comes when things become so clear that when you open your eyes, you will find that on the outside is darkness.

 

Inner Marriage

 

A woman is beautiful, a man is beautiful. Love is good, nothing is wrong, it is healthy and whole. There is no need to drop it, but it can be dropped, and then you are no longer dependent on it. Then you can allow the phenomenon to happen inside, and a moment comes when this inner circle remains forever. With the help of the outer, it cannot remain forever because the outer has to separate, the separation is a must.

 

But with the inner there is no need to separate; if the inner marriage happens, there is no divorce, there is no possibility because it is always there, both are there. Once they have met, there is no question of any divorce. With the outer, divorce happens continuously; one moment you are together, the next moment you have to be separate.

 

When this circle remains continuously within you, this is the state of ardhanarishwar.

 

The Mustard Seed, courtesy Osho International Foundation, www.osho.com